As a child, she is all curiosity, eagerly taking in information as fast as she can, even when she fails to appreciate what she observes. She is a "professional listener E(8) who has secret "listening posts E(63) around the house. She is the "out looking eye E(35), always enlarging her "scope of vision E(97).
"I wanted to speak in some way that would be more poignant and comprehending than anything of which my mother could possibly be capable. But I did not know how E(91)
Vanessa's account of her last real conversation with her father ends with the words, "But I did not know and so could not tell him E(101). The word know becomes the most important one in Vanessa's vocabulary. 15 yr old Vanessa is capable only of fantasies and revenge: "I still did not know what to do in reality"
Thus the book begins with a clearly defined spatial configuration: Vanessa, within the safety of her house, her family, and her youth, looks out at a world that recedes before her. For her young mind, the esse