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I’ve always thought my childhood would remain a vague outline of my past. Attempting to conjure up events and images I believed to have happened. It was my “attempt to impose order on the environment”(Schacter, 95) around me. But the question was always lurking in the back of my head: Why was I repressing events that happened before and after my parents got divorced? And why was I so angry about something I could hardly remember? The only way I would be able to come to terms with this anger and finally free myself of the burden of always thinking about my parents divorce would be to begin a process of understanding why I was repressing these memories. The first step in understanding the basis of my repression was to look at a definition of repression: “A psychological process of keeping something out of awareness because of an unpleasant affect connected with it. The something maybe a meaning (or part of a memory) a fantasy, a thought, an idea, a feeling, a wish or impulse, or a connection” (Madison,5). From this definition my own theories on repression began to take form slowly. I was now beginning to see that repression was a coping device (my defense) I used unconsciously to deal with unwanted situations