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So where do I start? I have spent my life not knowing. Not knowing what to say, not knowing what to do, not knowing what to wear, not knowing if I’ll ever have a boyfriend, and most of all, not knowing what I want. I’m so unlike my friend Justin. He “knows” all. Ever since the eighth grade he has known he wants to be a movie director; now, he’s in college at the North Carolina School of the Arts. Justin always has witty remark or brilliant comment for any situation, unlike me, soft-spoken, and often unheard. Life as a teenager confuses me. I want to fit in; still, I want to be my own person. I don’t want to be known as just another girl; I want to be myself, but I want everyone to accept me. I guess I am insecure- I have an awesome group of friends, yet I think if I break away from the pack, they would drop me, though I am certain they never would. It is so hard trying to please everyone. Being the oldest of three means I must be a shining example for my siblings. My parents expect so much of me, which explains my over-achiever attitude. I just want to escape sometimes, and that is hard due to their overbearing and overprotecti